You Are An ISFJ

The Nurturer You have a strong need to belong, and you very loyal.A good listener, you excel at helping others in practical ways.In your spare time, you enjoy engaging your senses through art, cooking, and music.You find it easy to be devoted to one person, who you do special things for. In love, you express your emotions through actions.Taking care of someone is how you love them. And you do it well! At work, you do well in a structured environment. You complete tasks well and on time.You would make a good interior designer, chef, or child psychologist. How you see yourself: Competent, dependable, and detail oriented When other people don't get you, they see you as: Boring, dominant, and stuck in a rut

Yummy Yummp yum yum...
Today’s my daddy’s birthday….! Heeheee….Guess he enjoyed himself today…! Today’s the first time his brother’s family (my uncle’s) celebrating his birthday for him… We went over to his house and my aunty was so nice to offer to celebrate my daddy’s birthday….! Hehexx….we had steam boat, cake and loads of fun….! A small round table crowded with 10 people…(including my cute little cousins)…chit-chatting about our lives and what’s happening recently…ahhh…I like this kinda family gathering..eventhough not all my uncle and anuties are here…I know he is happy and satisfied enough….! Oooo…almost forgot to mention…the food we ate is really shiok…! We had big tiger prawns (my favourite~~!), cheese toufu, salmon, well-marinated, chicken and fish, fresh green cabbage, sotong, fishball, and many many more…! And the prawns really rocks…! So damn sweet and crunchy* (yum yum)..oh and not forgetting the sparkling apple soda…!Wooo….!

Dissappointment….?

Yea..there’s a lil disappointment I guess… My brother sort of made my dad angry cuz he brought his ‘beng’ friends to outside my uncle’s house..(my dad don like them cuz they are abit of beng + hooligans la)…so he began his lecture there lo…my bro also showed attitude la..(kns..whack him den he know).. but I guess this is not the worse… the worst thing today is that my mum din celebrate his birthday with us….T_T…she went mahjonging… And ya..my dad admitted that the greatest disappointment today is not havin his beloved wife by his side on this very important and memorable day... hmm… that’s the cons of being devoted and sentimental maybe…? Anyway…he knows my mum love him like how he love her I guess…! =) muacks muacks…!

Cutie pies….!

OMG…! My baby cousin is so damn chubby and fat….! Imagine a baby weighing 12 kg when he’s only 1 years old last time pls.. I’m not kidding sia..! he is REALLY heavy when I carried him… lol…he handed me a plate and then pointed at the left over food on the table…ask me get some food for him… Wahaha… omg….and that small fella is so busy today..that he kept running around the house shouting and shouting in his baby language that nobody understands..hahaxx…I must say he’s very smart..he whacked my uncle at the back den grab hold of his chopstick…(signals that he wanna eat).. haha… guess that is how a baby behaves when he’s born with cheeky and smart brains…! =) hmm..really enjoyed myself today…and I hope my daddy enjoyed it too…kk.. that’s all folks…! Oh ya…happy birthday to those whose birthday falls on this day too..and also to my dad…!

Remember my entry on that bangala cust…? Lol.. she got a guy to write a complain letter to Cartel’s HQ…to complain about me la…and ya…the free bread also…. Lol… what a typical Singaporean…still ask my manager to do something about it… haizz.. pls la.. I think that was the FIRST complain I got okie…and I’ve worked with Cartel for like almost one and a half year…my managers all know me inside out la… Hahax..think that complain letter can help to balance my feedbacks…cuz all the previous ones I got are compliments…ehem….! =) she think one poor lousy letter can affect me ar…if I really kenna affected then that muz be the greatest joke of the year pls…hmm..

Woo..anyway…I got back into much more contact with my buddy (whose like been lost for a few months ago)..really glad that the three of us can be like last time now…! I enjoyed the pizza hutty that day buds…! Hope we can meet up more often…! I really miss the good times we shared…! MuacKss muAckSs….! =)

Week 5 only...and school's getting boring...especially when i'm in my class la..they are so damn fake..and they only suck up to people who are of use to them...bootlickers i can say..i hate these kinda people man..really eh...but my pals in class are really forgiving enough to accept those hypocrites...and i really have to give them two a big thumb up.. i just cant tolerate people with the mentality to make use of others...during exam period or when report is due in a few days time, you'll see them..Yl this, Yl that...oh my, if i were YL, i think i would ask all of them to line up, and give every single one who made use of me a fucking big slap on the face...during the holidays, you don even get a single msg from them asking how you've been or stuffs like that...i hate school...or perhaps i've neva been looking forward to resume lectures and tutorials... Modules this sem is definitely 'challenging'... Took two test this week..and i think i am sure gonna score damn badly.. i've got many reports not yet done and they are damn irritating....worse thing is we got separated with our own group members...Dunno why for no reason, i got so angry with myself during FPM today(one of the most sucking module i had to take)... suddenly feel that i shouldn't even be studying in a decent poly for now...kept telling myself to just give up on studies and concentrate on work... i don't even have the rights to study...in the first place.. Couldn't help it..but i feel really helpless with my studies..and it seems like no one understand how i really feel... i dunno..for how long more i can hang on before i get banned or failed in my exams..but my 2nd year modules really suck big time.. I know it's not nice for gals to say things like that.. But i really cannot take it any longer...sometimes i just wish to throw all my notes away... I know at this period of time, i cannot afford to focus on studies... might as well give up... But the contradicting thing is i feel that all my efforts that i put in during o' levels will go into waste if i give up just like that.. studied so hard just to get a place in poly and i'm thinking of giving up now...silly...? i know my course will guarantee me stable income in future..(provided if i score well enough) i want to hang on...till i graduate...make my dad proud of me...give him a good life so that he can retire and enjoy life...also give my future family a good life..so that my kids can lead a better life too.. I mean, if i ever will have my own family and kids, i would want them to focus on studies rather than having to work and study at the same time...but given the situation now..it's difficult... Sometimes i really wonder..why women have to study so hard just to earn money for themselves...just get married and they can stay at home to look after the kids...wait for money to drop on them la...just like what my mum is doing now...although some times it means that mama will get all the stupid nonsense from their kids...but think again..if they marry a good guy who has stable income, then don have to study like crazy liao ma...maybe i'm abit old-fashion in this thinking..but it's because of stupid studies that really make me think that way.. if today, my results are so damn bloody good...will i think in that way then...?????

Phew…! As usual, work studies work studies…! How boring can life get….? It’s always work…and money is always the cause to why people are so hardworking I guess.. Haha..at least I’m one of those…Time is really so tight..that I don’t even have some for myself… T_T I’m not exaggerating okie…. The worse thing is…I’m already so tired and sianzz liao go home still gotta listen to my mum nag…But not at me of course.. I know those butt itchy brother of mine deserves scolding and nagging (probably some beatings)..but I’m innocent eh…my ear already bursting liao reach home still kenna… kaozz… don’t everything throw to me by saying ‘don’t believe ask your sis..elder ones dunno how to behave..dunno how to lead by example…’ or stuffs like that… Sick and tired la pls… How I wish I can shut these fooking comments outta my mind… I’m really stressed…! I know my parents are tired too…and they’re aren’t having a good life either..but I just couldn’t help it.… I’m doing my best at supporting myself..don complain anymore especially when I’m not complaining in the first place for having to work to make ends meet for myself…who really understand…? nobody I guess…. Pls STOP…! Stop all those fooking nonsense….! I love my family but it will one day wear out if these goes on I think… I wanna share my problems…but am afraid that people will get sick and tired of listening..just like how I’m sick and tired of hearing my mum nag… they should all go see a counsellor I think.. There are just so so many problems among them.. shall not tell too much ova here…find it disgraceful to even mention… Seems like I’m getting outta control now..gotta stop…I’m almost venting my anger now I think… Stop before I explode.. *Digging for happy moments to wash away my anger*…still trying hard to…

People nowadays are getting impatient at almost everything… Maybe because of the hectic phase of life we have Singapore… It’s okie to be impatient…(only to some extent I mean…) ;)
Sometimes we get scolded for nothing…(even if we’re doing something good for the sake of that ridiculous idiot)… In the end what we get is nonsense… Now I know why people say : ‘it never pays to be kind’ …and it’s so damn true la… only way to console myself is to pity…

>Pity those who are impatient cuz they can never enjoy the process of a good change…
>Pity those who are ridiculous cuz they are ignorant…( even though sometimes it’s better
to be ignorant)…
>Pity those who dunno how to treasure their friends cuz they’ll end up with non at the
end of the day…
>Pity those who are selfish cuz they can never feel the satisfaction one can get by
sharing…
>Pity those who show no respect for others cuz they wont get any back…
>Pity those with no conscience cuz they do not know the values of life…
>Pity those who dunno how to love cuz they can never reach out to the hearts of others…
>Pity those who don lend a listening ear cuz they’ll only end up having ‘Hi-Bye’ friends..
>Pity those who are picky cuz they’ll only see the ugly side of life..
>Pity those who are indecisive cuz they’ll end up achieving nothing..
>Pity those who dunno how to pity cuz that shows how self-centered they are..
(* The key to command people’s respect is to respect people’s command…)
All I think wan okie.. hahaxx…powerful not..? lol…
But some people just don’t deserve any respect.. got so so angry with this two barbarians when working.. I was the cashier…(keying orders and collecting money only..) and it was so damn busy during the peak hours la.. Suddenly this siao kia came up to me to ask to see my manager..after giving me a lecture using her barbaric language..

She was so pissed..think I could sense her burning hair smell.. Lol… Anyway, this barbarian made a complain…about the FREE bread..It’s free okie.. Definition of free means don’t have to pay.. And we don have service charge.. Everyone was so busy running around the outlet like crazy working bees just to serve those stupid and ignorant barbarians.. Kaoxx..they dunno maths or wat..dunno how to count ar..1 2 3 4… We got limited no. of runners and yet we gotta serve soooo many of them from barbaric club okie.. back to that particular one… she scolded my manager infront of me and the other customers..saying that we din serve them the bread.. Like hello, the bread station is so damn bloody big down there..cant she just walk ova there and take some for herself..? (heh, tot barbarians are pretty good at that…?) Not as if cartel is millions of square feet big la… Plus our bread is so nice..so much so that people have to queue up just to get it at the station eh… good and nice bread and we’re not even charging them a single penny for that.. Know what she said about that..? ‘ I just don’t understand why are there people queuing up for the bread….your management is treating us like beggars…pls do something about it.. since you said it’s free..why is there no bread for a period of time?’ (Omg….! I din know she joined the beggars club also la and she probably think that our bread can toast themselves..like we don’t have to toast it or what…that’s why I termed her barbarian..dunno what is peak hours and toasting time ar huh..) still demand discount from us..din know her face is like few inches thick okie..

Neva mind, we managed to shut her stinky mouth by giving in to her ‘request’…so she stormed off angrily with her hair burning…woo hoo... Then, this customer (behind that female barbarian just now) saw how we kenna scolded and how that idiot managed to get the discount.. Wa piang…another beggar…complained about bread again… at that time I was having a really bad cough…kept coughing till I couldn’t stop.. (I always get it when I’m having cough)… so so bad till my tears fill up my eyes already la… while I was coughing, this 2nd idiot kept scolding me for the absence of the bread eh… Kao..i cough till cannot talk sia..then she use this chance to scold me..bully sia… T_T…Bang~~ga~~la… then I purposely shout out loud for my manager to come out talk to her..so my poor manager kenna 2nd time… haha… I know I’m abit bad la.. but I really would have thrashed it out with her if I’m not having the bad cough la..i did it many times to many customers before…don’t dare me… But really la..i so damn sway can… stand at counter also kenna..and it’s two complains straight in a row eh.. lottery also not so zhun la…scold me for wat..when the bread station is not even within my sight..even if it’s within my sight I also cannot control the amount of bread my colleagues cut right… Barbarians….! Not my fault also I kenna…what the…

Better don let me know where they working at sia… if not I also go there complain about everything they have la.. But I not barbarian or beggar hor.. I’m different from them.. Haha..even if I have to be one, I’ll be a civilized one.. lol…! That’s why I always thank the aunty who clears my plate or even the table for me after my meal..cuz it’s basic courtesy…and I understand how they feel as a worker…BUT….! i’m not an aunty…! End of my entry..thank you for reading…lol...see..? I’m courteous… hehe… c’’) ….Friends, If you’re reading this..pls make it a point to at least thank the poor cleaners for clearing the table for you.. you’ll brighten up their day (if you sound sincere enough..) ;)

Dunno why these few days I’ve been having bad dreams..or rather nightmare that struck me off waking up with sweaty forehead and tears at the corner of my eye.. I had this really strange dream la.. It all started with…..someone I know passed away..(but I couldn’t remember who it was)…I remember very vividly..there were people crying over the deceased..they were crowding around her and crying very painfully..(I know none of them la) while I was the only one staring at the dead body..not crying…
Then in my dream I heard some one calling me..so I turned and looked behind..eventually I see no one la... tot I think too much.. just as I turned back, I found myself in this dark and cold theatre with no chairs, no one..no nothing… just a screen with bright white lights flashing and flashing…(like as if I’m watching a movie).. I looked into the screen..and here comes the scary thing… I saw my own face in the screen…the scenario I saw is exactly the same as the one when that lady died…but this time round, there wasn’t anyone crying around ‘me’… I knew very clearly in my dream, that the one I saw in the screen who died isn’t me BUT she’s wearing my face…! So damn scary to see ‘myself’ die… In the theatre I was the only one..kneeling down there crying and shouting like hell… I dunno how to describe that misery la..but it’s worse than death I think… It’s as if I can only watch ‘myself’ die.. helplessly…! I can say…..if that really is a movie..the director must be damn good la.. cuz a few seconds before I was dying in the scene..(my eyes lids about to close I mean)..3 quarter of the screen’s filled up by my face…(close-up to my dying face la).. Although it wasn’t bloody or what..i was sad…really sad.. I died so peacefully I remember…no tear no blood... as if I’m sleeping… This dream really made me understand how it feels like to meet death…the dream ended very stupidly la.. The screen just blacked out then I woke up le.. Scary~~~~….

I woke up..couldn’t remember what my dream was… until half way in school I suddenly remember.. The first person I told was YL… She also abit shocked I think… Lol… then later that night, I found the dream ‘special’..so I decided to tell my papa and mama..since I haven’t got a chance to talk to them for like so many days already… I popped my head into their room..told them I got something weird to tell them.. They thought I must be up to no good again la.. I didn’t care about what they wanted to tell me..so I just cut into their conversation…telling them about my dream.. haha… The funniest thing is..when I finished my tale, my papa and mama looked at each other in the eye…stoned for a while… Haha…they were afraid and worried for me…! Dunno why..i felt their love the moment their facial expression tells me that they’re worried.. haha.. okie..i know that’s abit childish la.. But which child don wan love from their parents…. In my heart I was so happy…(lol..down there *um song*-in hokkien la) Haha… Then my papa keep on telling me to be careful when I’m outside on my own…avoid funerals below HDB flats…don anyhow talk rubbish about hell and death…don anyhow step on people’s offering and stuffs like that..(all those taboos during 7th month la) I think that bad dream really scare me.. now I’m afraid of sleeping…but no choice la..still gotta sleep…ZzzzzZzz..

I’m left with no choice but to lie on my bed lo..if not sure kenna scold de ma.. Den…the second part….! I dreamt that I was cycling back home from dunno where.. a few blocks before mine..i saw people’s funeral below the blocks.. and it’s not only 1 la.. The wake was at every block I cycled pass okie.. Finally I got outta those blocks, this woman came chasing after my bike.. asking me to stop...stop cycling.. She was so angry that I didn’t listen to her command…As if she want me to go to the funeral… Had a feeling (in my dream) that she wanted me to die with her.. in other words..she’s a g**** la… PIANG… I swear la… never once in my life I cycle so fast before okie.. Lol.. Kept looking back to see if that woman is still chasing…until my bike brought me to the roadside..with blocks alongside.. You know pasar malam..? I saw many coffins laid neatly like stalls arranged up along the roadside in a pasar malam la… the two way road was dark.. only lamp post along it.. (like how our normal road is at night) with no cars.. only coffins la.. damn scary.. worse than resident evil.. Those two dreams I had…I’m really not exaggerating.. I’m trying to describe it like how I experienced it in my dream… abit stupid la.. scare myself again.. guess I’ll have a difficult time sleeping again... anyway… I just wanna tell this out.. it doesn’t matter if the readers don believe… ;) bad dreams pls don come anymore.. tolong tolong…. Haha… I just wanna wish myself…sweet dreams..for the rest of my life…!

(Scaring myself on 31 Oct…@1.17am)