Many ppl take things for granted and neglect little things and changes in life... including myself... I couldn't remember when...did i realise...


the growth of my feet...from a baby's to an adult's...


the popping out of my teeths..


the change in my height and weight...


the number of times i was hugged and carried by my dad...


the number of friends i have...


the increasing amount of responsibility i have to bear...


the change in my character...


the whitening of the silver threads my dad has on his head...


the wrinkles he has on his face...


the voice breaking period of my brother's...


the time when my plam could only cover half of my dad's...


the time when i still need to be taken care of...


the seasons when i looked forward...for a family holiday...


the strong but already ceased desire...


hoping my mum would come back to us...


and the number of shoes, specs, clothes, watches, bags i've changed throughout the past 20 nearly 21 years of my life...


Little things in life that i took no notice of adds up to alot in mine...


I'm reflecting upon myself like a mirror...what about you...? =)

I miss him...i still do...
Maybe the feelings were neva gone at all..
Miss the days when we were together...
The day he got into trouble and made me worried...
The days when he'll do anything to make me happy..
Days when he irritated me but i enjoy being irritated by him..
Days when we quarrelled but he still gave in in the end...
Days when i feel most protected with him around...
Days when i tell my close friends things that happenned between us..be it happy or sad...
Days when i start to miss him right after we parted...
Days when we had to go secretly to the movies...
Days when i had to be his alarm clock every morning...
Days when he teased and laughed at me...
Days when i was forced to say " I love you" even when he knows i really do...
Days when he locked his arm around my neck, dragging me alongside him as we walked and played around...
Days when he held on to my hand so tightly i thought he wouldn't wanna let go...
Those were the days...i truly miss...

I suddenly feel like a spare tyre...in fact..not 'a'...should be 'alot'... I know i'm used as an excuse for friends to go out with their other half... I know i'm being use to accompany people when they run out of company..i know how much and where i stand in their hearts finally... I placed them high in priority deep down in my heart...But where exactly do i stand in theirs...? Not even a single pathetic percent i guess... I really wanna get this emo shit mood outta me cuz it really bothers me alot...
Accomodating is the most tiring thing...it lets people get the better of you and when you're sick of accomodating...the feeling is more than you can take...It takes 2 hands to clap and things happen for a reason...whateva it is... Different people see things differently..hence different point of view..And this time round..i'm not gonna change my point of view of what has happenned...i dun wanna accomodate to people's point of view anymore...just let me be stubborn cuz i'm tired of persuading myself to accept things that i dont like to be happenning or even console myself for what has happenned...Not blaming anyone...But i really feel taken for granted...Nuff said...

天秤，一个会掩饰伤口的悲哀星座

天秤座，注定会受伤，但是天秤太过坚强，天秤们真的不愿意在别人的面前流露出自己的伤口，即使，一个最爱的人离开了自己，也不会再去挽留，因为天秤们相信，他还会回来，还会回头。。。 天秤很会流泪，不会在别人面前流泪，只有到了夜晚，一个人躲在角落，享受孤独，享受寂寞，留下咸咸的眼泪，天秤太会掩饰，即使受伤，也会和朋友谈笑风生，似乎看不出天秤们的一点点忧伤。。。 在别人面前，天秤们都很开朗，很活泼，可是，谁了解天秤们心中的苦？天秤们象征着公正，和平，可是，天秤们对自己是最不公平的。。。 天秤们不会轻易的爱上一个人，如果真的爱上了，将会无法自拔，陷在爱情的沼泽，出不来了。。。可是，受伤的总是秤子。。。 秤子们不会说不，因为天秤们心太软，天秤们怕别人受伤害，即使受伤的是自己。。。 面对太多的事情，天秤们欲哭无泪，天秤们只会把自己关在自己的小屋里，无法释放。。。 天秤们会悲哀，可是。。。又有多少人，可以懂得天秤们的悲哀？