Taking the train reminds me of those days...
Things we did and places we went...
Eventhough the feeling is not there anymore...
I'm happy and grateful for the memories of those times...
Thinking of them soothens a tiring heart...
Brings me calmness and reminds me the feeling of being loved...
By someone i once loved before...
Memories are what is left between us...
Sweet Memories
Thanks...
=)
Leave out the bad ones though...

I'm leaving for Bangkok tomorrow noon, coming back on 18th march... Hope the situation there's better now... Saw on the news these few days abt the riots between the red and the yellows...and i heard its quite dangerous there...but i'm still going..with my family.. not that i'm afraid of death or something... i always believe when my time is up, its time to go...but if it's not, no matter how i try to end my life also no use... Lol...hmm...kinda emo alrdy... Anyway yea...speaking of the trip..i've neva been to thailand before..so i hope to see things that can really make my eye pocket stretch big big..hahas.. =D

Went somerset today...watched Dear John...it's a really nice movie.. Not like what i expected...eventhough there are only those few actors and actresses and the settings are limited, the whole movie is simple and heartwarming... especially the part when the father lied on the hospital bed with the son sitting beside him reading the letter the son wrote.. Wanna know more then go watch the movie! =)

听完你说Goodbye之后 我自己掉眼泪
自己那么用心 那么投入 到底为了谁
你总是说 不必太过 太过在乎谁
这样只会 令自己 越来越累
每天醒来我都 告诉自己 要少爱你一点
好让离开那天自己可以 好过一点
可是一天不见 我就在夜里 梦见你好几遍
醒来的时候 才发现你已不在身边

每一个女孩都期待 能拥有爱
能够被人爱 不受伤害
我对你的爱 我不明白 何时变成了依赖
每一个女孩都期待 能拥有爱
Never say goodbye 不要再分开
I’ll never make you cry I’ll treat you right
Feel the love & close your eyes

想让你明白 对你的爱 就像深 深的大海

Sometimes i'm just very saddenned by actions done by my friends..those that i truly hold dear to my heart.. All these years..our friendship..cant even hold a single candle to the relationship with her bf for 1 to 2 years... Its really disappointing to see us going down the rock.. So many ppl who cared and loved her...Probably she still cant see us cuz she only has eyes for the bf... Fine if problems were not told to me..i take it that she doesn't wanna bother me since i'm busy working... But when it comes to serious probs, why am i not informed or not told about it..? I feel kinda useless being her friend..when i'm suppose to be there for her, i'm not...as much as i really want to..
Many things she really "cannot" understand and "cannot" see.. Love from the parents, friends and relatives.. Was so worried for her upon receiving her msg...and so saddenned that i only got to know about her plans 2 hours before (a really last minute info) not once but twice... I feel so tiny and "transparent" to her... Are we not worth her attention??? Our friendship for 4 years...where did she leave our memories at???
I believe she may hate me or blame me for being so much of a kpo..interfering in her life or even her family problems...But it is only through us can her mum feel safer and less worried.. We are not trying to bad-mouth her bf... Its the way he portray himself infront of the elders.. In fact, i spoke up for him before.. in the end, what i got was him asking her not to be so close to me...isn't that funny??? He WAS my friend...but not anymore since the day he asked her to leave us.. In other words, i DO NOT see him as someone i know cuz i alrdy dunno what he's thinking and why is he behaving in that childish and stupid way...of being the "controller" in their relationship..restricting my friend to do certain things and if she don't listen to him, he'll throw unnecessary tantrums...not even behaving like how a man should behave... I try not to probe about her relationship cuz i don wanna remind her of the painful things she went through...and i also know she don really wanna tell me..that's why i din ask abt it...unless she wanna tell me.. Actually not only her, my other friend as well...i know she's going through some uncertainties but she dont seem to wanna let me know either..as if i would kill the bf...wadever...
I dont care how my friend feel anymore if she were to see this..since my feelings were not even considered in the first place...Treat others like how you wanna be treated... I did put in alot of effort in maintaining this friendship... Anyway, it takes time to see who's truly good to her...let time prove it...till then she'll know...i hope...
Stupid me waiting so aimlessly for your return to us...

I dreamt of him again yest...that's the best thing that happenned to me this week....