Haven't been in the best of mood especially these few days.. Still having some problems at home and i don't think it'll be resolved anytime sooner.. As a daughter, an elder sister, and a niece of my family..whatever mistakes the younger ones do, the eldest will surely be the first to kenna..to many ppl, they might think it's normal... But in my family (being the more old fashion and tradition one), the eldest one will have to be at 'fault' even if they're not.. Imagine my phone, ringing all day... not calls from my friends or important stuffs..but calls from my aunties..calling to nag and nag (sometimes it's the same aunty calling a few times a day nagging abt the same things)..expecting me to be responsible for my siblings wrong doings... i find it very stupid and unfair.. Plus...

I've been rather busy with school stuffs, labs, lectures, tutorial, reports (something i really hate to the core).. And my actual timetable isn't as fixed as it is suppose to be.. Especially for me since i'm joining the other programme. I don't belong to any class..had to join different classes for different modules.. so when i get 1 or 2hours break inbetween my day, i'll be wandering around the school like an idiot.. Crap..but what can i say..at the end of the day is because i didn't score well enough the last sem... But i'm considered lucky cuz i still got zx, nic, jl, fred, danial and ppl i know...all guys, seems like i'm the only gal within that group..-.- But i'm totally fine with that..at the end of the day they still get bullied physically eventhough i get bullied by them mentally... Heh...And...

Orientation for the freshies yest was fine, considered successful...only a little dissappointed that they didn't get to see sensei... Cuz their 'motives' for attending yest event was to see him and the techniques he'll be showing... eventhough not alot turned up, i was contended.. At least we had ppl coming and most of them were interested...(but for how long they can stay i dunno and i don wanna think abt it)... Ian told me that my job is to simply get those who are interested to join, help them sign up and do whateva stuffs required..After they join, it's up to them whether they wanna come for trainings... I had to agree with that... there's only so much we can do yet those ppl out there don really appreciate what we've been trying to do... Having said that reminds me of the ppl from my batch (things that happened before) and my jnrs..those promises they made were all broken...in the end, i'm like as if the only one left from my batch...(luckily i had alayne who was willing to help...)

I was asked (or rather encouraged) to go for sunday's class and the upcoming grading..dunno if this is something good..but the seniors said it's a good privillege for the chairperson.. Being in this position makes me wonder sometimes...am i really good enough to be granted a post of the president of the club..or izzit simply because there's no one else left from my batch that's why i'm eligible...? Ppl always say..wa president leh... ya..president...so..? Nothing big deal if you don't get the respect no matter how hard you try to earn from others.. For now, i'm hoping that the club stays up well till i graduate (else gabe's effort will be wasted...) anyway all the martial arts club in NYP are proposing a petition to the school with regards to getting back what's rightfully ours.. Of course also hoping that even after i graduate, the club will continue to grow, not only in numbers..but also the jnrs' knowledge and passion towards the art of aiki... i dunno..as for myself..whether i'm training because i've some responsibilities to carry out, to lead by example, or if i still like aiki just like how i liked it when i was still a white..