我一直在等一個人,等一個我心中最完美的人.

Everyone has different definitions towards 'Love'... In my opinion, love is not just about 2 people in a relationship.. Of course i'm not anyone to comment anything about that but after seeing my friends' facebook profile and msges online...it sort of sparked me to feel like having a relationship...

Maybe its because of those sweet stuffs they write and post...maybe its because i wanna reminisce the feeling of being loved (in a relationship this time i mean)... Love from families and friends and the love from your partner is definitely different.. No matter how much love my family and friends give, they can neva be as sweet as those given by my partner... But that doesn't mean i dont treasure the love given by them.. In fact, they are stored in my heart and used as a form of console sometimes...not that pathetic i guess...Haha.. In a relationship, i'm the smitten one, the one giving in, and the one who gets lead by the nose.. Friends who know me well enough can definitely proof that...(especially my ex-yishunites).. I guess i really neglected them during those days and i was lucky enough that they didn't give up on me despite the fact that i only had eyes for my "him"... They were understanding enough eventhough there were some complaints.. I really appreciate the love from them.. =)

As compared, the love i gave to "him" and the love my friends gave me during that time... Theirs are selfless and constant... Sometimes i feel guilty towards them and thinking back now..i'm really a very ''not up to standard'' friend i guess... =p For friends, love remains the same...for relationships, love is in the air...that can be sweet...but that can also mean it will sink... When it sinks, the "love that remains the same" will be a supporting line to support the "sinking one"... Lol...i dunno if you get what i mean...but yea..it roughly around there lar...

My parents...they were very worried...you know what most parents think nowadays when their kids get into a r/s lar.. They would call me after 1.45 to "spot check" on me... Worried that anything might happen... But the more they call, the more i ignore... Not trying to be rebellious..at that point of time, i feel no trust from them.. We made a pact and i promised nothing would go wrong but they couldn't get that thought outta their mind.. I couldn't understand why do they have to see things differently from me...and why cant they just trust that i love myself and that i wont let anything to go wrong... That period of time was rather difficult for me cuz i'm stucked in the middle of 2 choices... I couldn't understand also why they wanna leave me with the cruel choices...but now i know...it's a form of love too... Just that we're standing on different views that's why we see things differently..

I guess we all need time to realise the different love different ppl give...